Memories are triggered by so many different things. Often smells or the time of year, or pictures, or places, but not usually Bible verses. At least, scripture doesn’t usually make me remember being about 7 years old in my Grandma’s kitchen, but I guess it’s more likely that it would remind me of that than anything else….Yesterday I had a few moments alone in the kitchen, and since I’ve learned that this is normally the only place that I end up with a few quite moments, I started keeping my copy of “Seeking God’s Face” there so that maybe once a week I can actually get in a daily devotional sort of prayer. As I waited for my coffee to perk and ignored how close it was to being time to head out the door, I picked up the book and turned to Nov. 6, 2013 and knew just from the invitation that I was supposed to read these verses right now.
“Come to me, all you are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matt 11:28 – and I smirk a little and think: yep God, I know, I’m so weary, and always over burdened. How is it You always find a way to remind me?
I keep reading through Psalm 126 and then into Isaiah 40:27-31 which ends:
“They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” ….Teach me Lord, Teach me Lord, To wait I finish the song…..and I’ve been humming ever since.
I remember hearing those words so often as I sat in that sunny kitchen, chewing Grandpa’s trident gum and listening to the little radio that only stopped broadcasting hymns and sermons if there was a Giant’s game to listen to, and I remember not even knowing that those words came out of the Bible. I remember thinking how cool the idea of being able to fly on eagles wings might be and I think I must have pictured something like the opening scenes of the Disney movie “The Rescuers: Down Under” – flying on eagles wings was literally translated from that song into my head and I didn’t really catch the meaning of the rest of the words…..seven year old me thought: yea, yea – walk and not be weary, yea yea, run and not faint – ooooo…..eagles. And still, those words come back today and I know the words to the song, as well as to scripture by heart; and they speak to my heart in a way I still don’t understand.
How do I walk and not be weary and run and not be faint?
and Lord – How do I wait?
What am I waiting for?
There are plenty of things to wait for – to build towards and hope in: family, school and one day job, house, and one day feeling grown up (this actually happening seems more and more questionable as I get older).
further back in that same set of verses it says:
“The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth/ He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom”
and while I don’t think that answers a single part of my “what am I waiting for” questions, it puts me in the mindset that God is waiting along side of me, and I guess I’ll keep humming.